It is now nearing Christmas and as everyone is huddled together being all lovey dovey, I've picked the best book to be reading this time of the year. Jurassic Park??
The book
Written by this guy, Michael Crichton
Yeap, a book jammed pack with thriller and minimal romance. That's what I love about this book- The Lost World. The content of this book is so freaking inspiring and smart. I really do not know how he thought of all the things. There's just so much philosophy in there as well. About life and about being a human. About our perception on the world around us and how ignorant we are about it and took it for granted.
Anyways, a bit side-tracked there. The main point is that I can't help but feel a bit useless and lonely. Turning 20 next year and so far... nothing. Not a single person to like me back. Feeling a bit disappointed in myself. Especially since it is nearly Christmas now and everyone is so in the mood, so in love and cozy while I on the other hand just feel like running. Running to work, running to do other thing rather than really sitting down and think and do pointless things. For example, I just went through some of my friend's facebook profiles. Can't help feeling sorry for myself and a feeling of jealousy. I keep thinking: "Why is their life so freaking awesome and full of love while I'm alone all the time?" But then, every time, I think about that question, my brain automatically switch to the usual next question to comfort myself. "What about the people in Africa? People who are less fortunate" and I'll feel happy again. Because like they say, the grass is always greener on the other side. I should be happy for I am blessed with food and water and to be given the chance to watch television everyday and have an education and with friends and family that love me.
So don't feel disappointed that your life sucks.
Be happy and cherish what you have.
Be content as it only happens once in your life. :)
Thank you friends, family and the ones that love me. Merry Christmas.
